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Name: Jess
Country: United States
State: New York
Birthday: 11/2/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: hanging out with friends, going to the mall, shopping, going to hearts afire, youth group, online, phone
Expertise: listening to music such as: Dashboard confessional, finch, taking back sunday, thursday,yellowcard, senses fail, the early november, trapt, something corporate, saves the day,...
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
Message: message meEmail: email me
AIM:  xsweethonesty86x
Member Since:
7/31/2003
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| hey!
wow, it has been a year since I last wrote in here. I myspace all
the time, but I never blog on there really. so im thinking I might keep
writing blogs on here. let me update the past year of my life for all
you readers out there.
me and Rich have been going out for almost TWO YEARS! every day that i spend with him i fall more in love with him.
the holidays this year were the best I ever had- thanksgiving i went
with rich to his cuzins house for dinner, then to my house for dinner
#2. lol. it was a great day. Christmas eve rich went to church with my
family for christmas eve service. then to my aunts for dinner. I then
spent the night with rich watching a christmas story all night long
lol. we went to my house at 6 am slept a lil, then everyone opened
gifts, (nanny was here too). we had a nice dinner that night also. New
years eve me and rich went to his friends laura and lisa's house. it
was like 6 of us and we went out to the good steer for dinner and then
to their house to play games- scattegories and imaginiff lol all night.
we had some drinks (haha me gagging) it was so much fun.
Im no longer at wagner. i go to suffolk at night and i love it! im still a psych. major.
I worked at tutor time for almost a year ( I hated it!). now i love my job- im a nanny for a 2 month old baby named Logan.
life is good. I cannot complain.
I saw kim the other night, went to laura and lisa's with rich last
night and played guitar hero and karaoke revolution with them. now im
at his house. we will probably go out in a lil while. my first class is
tomorrow morning.
hope eveything is good for everyone else.
I'll update soon.
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| my poor poor xanga how i neglect you so  ...
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| i havent updated in forever
but i got a myspace so thats probobaly why...sorry guys
i will update soon
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| hey everybody!
well lets see what has been happenin' with me
-well november 2 i turned 18 years old- thats right- im legal!
- besides from my b-day not much new. went to six flags on halloween- fright fest- it was...well lets just say in the beginning it was cool- had a lot of fun- but i got sick- lack of sleep the night b4 ( 4 am laundry run steph haha) and then steph got sick and it was just awful- we made history tho- first time since six flags began that it has ever had to call the police. brawls broke out, fist fights- lines were ridiculous from 6 pm on- and we waited for the chiller (it had one coaster running) for 4 hrs!!! i thought the last time me and kim waited 3 hrs for nitro was bad, but it had nuthing on this- fights broke out on line- i got really sick, almost passed out a few times- people began cutting when we had 30 mins left, fights just broke out and it was scary- so i felt so awful i left the line- yup! after 4 hrs. people were like cheering for us to stay (along the line as we walked down) but i couldnt even see straight. so lets just say that was terrible. the rest of the night was a blur of pain- the bus ride back to penn sta. was scary- the ferry made me sicker along with the cab fare ( 3 dollars a person?????) but yeah. never again will i go to six flags with no sleep. never, ever. but we did go on tons of rides during the day. and I got my baby some presents- and he liked them a lot :)
- went to classes and did work during the rest of the week BLAH- and had a hard test in business- i hate that darn class. I have straight A's except that one class so far.
- i am the bug killer/ rescuer at Wagner- haha- friends call me to come get bugs and take them out of their rooms cuz they r scared and i am not afraid of any bugs (not even spiders or anything like that) - i try not to kill them but sometimes i squish them :/
- gilmore girls rocked on tuesday cant wait for this weeks..
- came home thursday night- some traffic- my baby came over when i got home and I was so happy :) I love you babe! he stayed late. then today he came over on his break ( i had just woke up at 1:40ish) then he came over later on and we went to a comic store, chinese buffet ( but it closed down) and so we ordered some somewheres else...then went to good old cvs (not mine) and amicis for zeppolis. then back here to watch some of saved ( great movie) drove around then to Richs and then back here- baby u r my everything and i love you so much!
- tomorrow (today really) i will do something- then rich is coming to dinner with my family for my b-day dinner. then sunday i dont know what i will do but i know i will spend it with my baby.
well this is long...very long... i hope u all read it tho :)
luv all of you
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| sometimes when i am really bored i sit around and contemplate about life. the main things i think about are life, family, love and happiness.
sometimes i get scared. i think about dying. i know i am a christian and i love god and i know there is heaven and i believe in God, but its still a scary concept to me. to know that one day it will end. and that i do not know how or when- it just frightens me. it also instills in me a kind of feeling. like we have life now- and its precious- we wont have forever so we have to live in the moment. i guess i do not do that all to much- i question too much and do not truly just go with it. when i think of my life now i feel a happiness. i have worked so hard to be a good person and i feel that i am on my way. i mean not that i was ever a bad person, but i want to be a selfless person and be compassionate yet have my own identity and feelings. I want to live life and have no regrets- to never think why didnt i do this or that...and so far i dont have any regrets- yes that is right- i have no regrets. no, i am not saying i did evrything right. of course i have not. but i believe that every experience shapes who we will become- god never gives us more than we can handle. i want to live every day- truly live it and learn and be happy.
I think about how i miss my family back home. I really miss them- it might be hard to admit cuz when i lived there i complained about stupid things like chores and rules, - but i love my family so much. i feel at ease when i am home and i know that when i am there nothing bad will hurt me becuz they are there for me no matter what. My mom is a great person- even tho we used to fight- i see myself like her in so many ways- like i say things and i know my mom would say those type of things. or i do something and i know that reaction is how my mom would react. its not bad tho- she has shaped me- im emotional becuz of her- and i do not think that is a bad quality at all. I have always seen my dad as this great guy- hes so laid back and care free- he really lives life and just goes with the flow- and i really admire those qualities. hes my protector and i know he does everything he can to ensure happiness for me and my family. and so does my mom she wants us to be safe and i tell her almost everything- more than most people tell their moms. my sister is unique- shes very diff. from me- but i love her and she says some dumb things lol. and my bro is my little baby haha i know hes 11 but i took care of him and hes a good kid and i love him. and of course my kitties and dog always keep me happy.
Love is the most amazing feeling in the world. when u love some1 u r totally vulnerable but in a good way- u live for their happiness and would take their pain and feel it for urself just so they didnt have to feel it. I love my bf rich. i still remember the way we met- being friends, and just knowing the exact moment i knew i loved him. its indescribable. I would do anything for him. when im with him i feel happy- it like penetrates my whole body and i just have this aura of happiness. hes such a good guy for those of you who only met him once i wish that you will meet him many more times so you can see how amazing he is. it just shines through. hes so compassionate- he loves people. and he would do anything for his friends and the people he loves. he loves me so much. i feel it in the way he kisses me and holds me. God, he just amazes me. his qualities are much like my dads- ones i look for in a guy. he takes care of me and protects me and makes sure im always smiling. he holds me and loves me and i want to never let go of him. i cry just writing this because i love him that much. im more than lucky than to have met him- he was my destiny. my fate. my one true love. and i will always love him. i would give up my life for his if it came down to it. I love him so much. i really really do.
my friends are also so important. they believe in me when no one does, they love me, and they keep me smiling. i just love them all so much. they stand by me thru thick and thin- no matter what happens. and thats all u can ask for in life.
so thats all- my longest entry in a LONG while. but thats all for now.
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